This is not something I planned to do when I first heard the diagnosis. A private person like me putting my life right out there...the good, the bad, and the ugly? I must be nuts!
My intention is to learn and grow stronger from my own thoughts and feelings as well as my mistakes; to share my highs, lows and inbetweens with those who love and care about me as well as other breast cancer babes, caregivers, and acquaintances; to give everyone a glimpse into this very complicated medical experience; to keep my very dear chosen family and caring friends informed as to what my schedule is, what I am experiencing, and what's rattling around in my head. Most importantly, I am sharing my unique experience that I continually find to be filled with many unknowns. Because of life events, over which I had little or no control, it is basically my dog and I facing this challenge a good portion of the time. So trying to convince myself that with the love of my friends I am not really alone is sometimes a difficult challenge when each day reality speaks otherwise.
It is possible my illness, your choices, and any responsibilities I ask you to share with me may take their toll on you and quite possibly our relationship. You may need to step back and take a breather for awhile and believe me, I will understand (maybe not right at first, but eventually).
No matter how far you go on this journey with me and no matter what the outcome for either of us, do know I am grateful for every minute you spend, every thought and prayer for me, every patient moment you give me, each honest thought you share, every bit of laughter and warmth you bring to my life, and most of all, for every bit of love in words or kindnesses and the quiet reassurance I feel in every hug. You are my caring angels...I can't begin to tell you how very blessed I am to have found you and I thank you for helping me continue to live!
From my heart to yours,
Donalee
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